at many times over this past week, little things have come to irritate me much more than they should. as a result, we've been constantly quarreling, and constantly unhappy.

there just comes moments when i am deeply dissatisfied with the status quo of things, and in voicing my displeasure, realise that there is nothing that i can do, and it frustrates me. frustrated cause i've allowed the situation to progress thus far, seemingly compromising, but actually only suppressing my own thoughts.

so i flare, throwing you and i off balance.

finally, when i've controlled my emotions and done an analysis, i often realise that some of the things i am unsatisfied can most likely be resolved in the future. just that i have to be more patient and wait, and in the meantime, not fret and cause unhappiness (even though i really wish it can be addressed NOW).

it becomes a cycle that is very tiring, and it makes me sad that you have to be cautious of speaking to me, for fear of setting me off. it is also kind of self-destructive. i love you for everything you are, but your flaws are also what makes me frustrated.

you don't have to bear with my temper, so i am grateful that you listen to me like nobody else would.

shall i promise to be rational and not get annoyed easily? you know i will only break my promise, i cant help it. but i'll try.